A few thoughts on yoga…
Lately something has just started to “click” for me with my yoga practice and I wanted to share a few of those thoughts with you.
My hope is not to turn you into a yogi but to share with you that there was a time, many times really, that I felt like I could never really “get into” yoga. Whether it was a doubt in myself or my abilities or an insecurity or something else, these negative feelings existed within me.
Living in a city like New York its easy to feel disconnected, frazzled and just rush through life. For those reasons, I crave connection and for me I find that through movement. I’ve always aspired to be a person who has a dedicated yoga practice. For some reason it used to feel far fetched or like I wasn’t in that box.
But there’s a reason I’m drawn to the mat. I know that, I trust it.
Though, I don’t always understand it. I’m not all that limber, or flexible. I don’t have what I would consider a “yoga body.” I’m tight from being an athlete my whole life. I hold stress in my back, neck and jaw (and surely in my heart). My mind races and my body fidgets, a lot.
I’m drawn to three things in life and on the yoga mat: connection, compassion and a challenge.
And for me, that is what yoga represents and that’s what keeps me coming back week after week(even when my first thought is “this is going to be hard, just skip it”). But I refuse to miss out on the work, the labor of love, sitting with the chaos in my body and mind, loving up on the sometimes pain and discomfort to get to the ease and comfort. Letting go of the thoughts that I’ll never be a “yogi” because I’m not super thin, or limber, or all that calm.
I believe the true yoga is in the work, the silence, the stillness, the compassion for yourself and those around you, the surrender of control, the acceptance of flaws and imperfections. And, the permission to love yourself, connect to your inner strength and the fire inside that has immeasurable strength.
And yet somewhere in between my own self-doubt, my will, my strength and that inner knowing that “this is right and I am right where I am supposed to be,” I found myself on the mat, week after week. And thus, I have created a dedicated yoga practice.
Let me know if you can relate or this resonated with you at all. Or let me know if there’s anything in your life that makes you feel like this, like once you removed yourself from the “I can’t” box it just all made sense. Maybe its not yoga but its a different hobby like cycling, or cooking, or writing, or music, or making art, or photography, or just anything else that challenges you to your core but affirms who you are in the same moment.
I know I’m not alone. We’re all in this together.
Thanks for listening, my friend.